A week of sadness

Well, I thought I have started the week with a smile but it ended with a sad face. Wednesday and Thursday was the worst of the week.

I had a Libyan guy who suddenly calls me via phone and proposed to me. And I had only known him online for less than 3 months. He claims to love so much that he wants to meet my parents and tell them he wants to marry me. Was actually betrayed by a girl and it isn't funny. She gave him my number and even told him where I study :-( After rejecting the proposal, he even had the balls to call me the next day and asked me if I would have sex with him since he can't have me as a wife.

Did he thought I was a prostitute by the roadside that would just let him have my body just like that?
Well, he is so wrong about it. I am so scared that I had to make certain changes. I'm just wearing a mask and fake my smile the whole of this week.

Yesterday, my boyfriend's Grandma (paternal side) had passed away due to cancer. What a scary disease it is. I feel so bad that I couldn't be with him at the moment he needs me most. He has to go through with this funeral thing and will be having his exams soon.

I truly love you, Milos and please forgive me that I cannot be with you right now. You do know that I will be with you emotionally and spiritually though not physically at the moment. But someday, we will be together I promise. I have faith in this relationship that it will work out well. I'm still waiting for you to walk me by the altar.

ALL BECAUSE OF YOU
I awake each day with a smile
And greet it with a laugh;
The world is a treasure to me
Because of you.

Everytime I think of something sad,
I replace the thought - with you!
My mind is instantly changed
And my heart is filled with gladness.

Every breath is take is meant for you,
I live this life surrounded with joy,
And I bathe in the promise of your love,
My soul belongs to you.

Each time I see something beautiful
I want to take it and bring it to you
My life has so much meaning now
Because of you.

Milos, my Love

No words could ever replace our love.
These are presents from Milos, Love of my Life.

I LOVE YOU xoxo


A special world for you and me
A special bond one cannot see
It wraps us up in its cocoon
And holds us fiercely in its womb.

Its fingers spread like fine spun gold
Gently nestling us to the fold
Like silken thread it holds us fast
Bonds like this are meant to last.

And though at times a thread may break
A new one forms in its wake
To bind us closer and keep us strong
In a special world, where we belong.